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| Wow...so I haven't posted on here in like a year and a half. With Myspace and Facebook taking over, I have completely forgotten about Xanga. This is good though, since I don't think anyone actually reads this anymore, I can vent without worry. I hate this stupid job. I hate being miserable when I wake up in the morning. I hate being so tired all the time that I go home and sleep for 3 hours or more until it is dark outside. I hate eating crap for dinner because I can't afford good food. I hate being so broke. I hate not having a career. I hate feeling like I don't have a purpose when I know I do. I hate that my life is so mediocre and bland. I really hate this stupid job. Most of all, I hate that I can't change any of this. No matter how I try, nothing ever seems to change. | | |
| Lord, help me to regain control over the hours of my day. Help me to be more organized, set priorities, and spend more time with you. I feel disorganized, disconnected, and stressed. I think if I were more organized, I wouldnt be so stressed all the time. Especially about money. Please. | | |
| "I can't wait to wake up tomorrow, and find out this promise is true. I will never have to go back to the day before you." -Rascal Flatts
The love of my life is home. He is truly a blessing from God. One of the best ones I have ever received. It is so wonderful to have someone to share your daily walk with. Someone that loves you for exactly who you are with no false fronts. Someone who gets just as excited about the Lord as you do.
God has also given me a testimony through Bobby. I love telling younger girls (and those my age) about how God delivered me from the totally terrible situation that I was in with Matt. How he gave me discernment and the courage to just walk away. How he stayed with me and eventually dropped me into the most blissful relationship I could ever imagine having. So many girls these days corner themselves into controlling, violent, and unhealthy relationships. I am in love with the fact that God has given me the opportunity to be a blessing to those that haven't yet gotten the courage to walk away. My heart aches for them. I have a passion for young girls in general. I only hope that God continues to use me in their growth process.
As for Bobby and I, he will be graduating in December and most likely be moving out of Greenville. Which will, again, be another challenge we get to go through. But until then, we will spend all the time that we can together. Letting God guide us to his will. I can't wait to see how God blesses us and our relationship through all the trials.
"I found the one my heart loves." -Song of Soloman 3:4 | | |
| I love Robert Douglas Layden.
Just wanted to get that off my chest. I have a lot more I want to say, but Im so tired. I think Im gonna call it a night...I know...10 on a saturday? Crazy. But I worked all day and then I went to a concert at abundant life church. Punk christian. Holy emo...I've never seen so many black and white shoes, eye liner, and cropped hair cuts on boys and girls alike  . It was awesome though. I got a good rock-out in.
Good night everyone! | | |
| I got a new Jeep peoples! A week ago today I went to the place and bought it by myself. Then I went to Nationwide and got my own insurance...by myself. It's nice to have something that you can actually count on. Ya know something that you dont't think is gonna blow up. Now all I have to worry about are payments....by myself, lol. My mom said she would help here and there as much as she could though. I think once classes are out and Im working more hours, I'll have no problem.
Speaking of moving vehicles, I got pulled over by a state trooper today. I had just left the house and I passed him going through Venter's Crossroads. So I wasnt speeding or anything because I had just stopped completely at a stop sign. I saw him turn around in my rear view mirror and I thought Hmmm...wonder what he's doin. Well then I realized he was after me, lol. It was very scary. I've never been pulled over before....never gotten a ticket. (Well besides for parking all day in a two hour zone, lol.) I had no idea what I had done wrong. Apparently its against the law to wear your seatbelt under your arm istead of over your shoulder. I never knew that. He let me go without a ticket, but I still cried halfway to class. I'm such a baby. I called Bobby and was like "You know how youre always telling me to wear my seatbelt right? Well now I am." Of course I was crying and trying to catch my breath when I told him, so he probably freaked out and thought I was in a wreck or something. It was a learning experience.
Well its the last week of classes finally. But the stress hasn't subsided yet. I still have some important things pressing on me and one final. Which reminds me, I need to start studying for a consumer behavior test. Pray for me.
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